YouTube!!!

Hello~!!

May here again.... o(*^▽^*)o

Can't really believe this is the last week of school for this semester already?!

Seriously? Like when I thought it wouldn't end... XD

Recently I've been thinking. . . . . . . .

My love for YouTube is serious!!! ♡♡♡

I don't think I can live a day without seeing YouTube,

I'm SERIOUS!

So.... I kinda wanna start to make some videos for fun!

It look nice and fun when I see the YouTubers do it~

Makes me wanna try it out too!

I'll try to make 1 most probably either next week or by the 1st week of March....

Still long I know.... (A；´･ω･)

Can't help it, exams are near~ ><;;

Also, I cannot guarantee good quality since it's my 1st time making a video....

So please stay with me!!!

The year has just started so I wanna do as much fun things as possible!

Since it'll be my last year of school before I'm gonna start working!

I'll update here more often tooo I promise /laughs/

& here's a recent me!

Here goes to 2015 being happy~

めぐみん

Year2015

Hello!! 

Long time no blog again... σ(^_^;)

Year 2015! 

Another year started and the year when I stop being a teen!!! ！(◎_◎;)

Haha. Hopefully this year I'll find myself...

Recently been taking things slowly,

Trying to figure out things and so..

Here's a quick update of me being alive

I'll most probably blog more this year so stay by kay!! /laughs/

めぐみん

Back here again

First post for 2014! LOL

Seriously, the last post was like 1 year ago... /opps!/

As usual, life have been full of ups and downs

With more downs for this past 2 years...

Like posting during this unusual timing, even-though there's school tomorrow... =_=;;

& this post is going to be a damn hell gloomy one

It just shows that I at one of my lowest period isn't it?

Recently, my mind keeps on drifting off to unhappiness and gloominess...

Something small can just snap me out for the whole day, whole week, month perhaps?

I've heard on a radio programme before that 

sadness actually will last at least 120 hours before really dispatching away

WOW.... ..... ....

It's pretty true, at least to me

Relationships are complicated...

Not as in those type, but more of families, & friends

I've pretty much closed myself up again...

I wonder this is the nth already?

& I had promised myself to do well this semester onwards,

not to be shaken by my raging emotions...

Things go rather well until you've been hit by something,

BAM! & gets thrown into a frenzy of uneasiness again

I've been told to get medication, but I can't bring myself to get them...

Money is one thing, & others like I don't even know myself

No one has ever been there when I'm at the lowest,

I don't expect anyone to be...

So irritated by almost everything,

even by the movements of my younger brother shuffling in his sleep annoys me

Haix, there's nothing for me to do

Thoughts are drifting again...

It's so meaningless

So dark, empty

there's literally nothing here...

I'm like a empty shell again

& humans scare me the most.

Crazy dreams are becoming a usual thing again,

they stop & return, stop & return

like a broken cassette

I hate contact, I wish I could just stay buried at home

& here comes the buzzing.

I'll stop here now,

hopefully I'll be able to sleep tonight without exhausting myself first

Good nights,

the next time I'm here, I wish I was better

& you wouldn't have to read such a boring & unnecessary post...

恵

Sadly,

Okay, weird timing to post again... I know!!! (✖╭╮✖)

Recently if you notice, I'm super inactive on the net.

& not just saying about my blog.... /gets killed/

But everything including my FB & Twitter!

There's a very good explanation for this, so just listen before killing me kays? (*´・ｖ・)

So, my lappy as most of my friends would have know has been officially dead for 2 months?

& my phone decided to do the same thing to me too... (o;TωT)o

My world around me is really hectic, everything feels like breaking apart, so..

I most probably wouldn't be able to really do any proper social networking until next year.... /DIES/

Just to inform you all that I'm not dead (yet) but just don't really have the means to do anything~

& I've change my email to this new one! Including my Google account~

Most probably will delete the old one ⇒ megu.teddys

as soon I've settle everything & get all my stuffs done!

Thank you for coming to my blog for the meantime~

(◍•﹏•) 恵

Helper-san

Hello hello, reporting in!!! o(*^▽^*)o

Been busy busy for the past 2 weeks, 

with work & of course this event that I'm helping out till tomorrow~

OISHII JAPAN! ヾ(´▽｀*;)ゝ"

Hehe, I've been helping out as the Information Receptionist☆

Events are fun but can get a bit hectic, boring, tiring etc... XD

Today was definitely the most fun out of all the days I'd been there!!!

I became a temporally translator for 1 of the exhibitor~(-＾□＾-)

Omg, I feel so bad cause my Japanese isn't as good & I suck at polite speech... :p

*cries cries*

Hehe, but the exhibitors were very kind & friendly...

They even gave me their samples to try♥

& had lunch with one of their staff!!!

Really, they are too kind~

千葉県の出展者さま、お世話しましたー

本当にありがとうございます！！！

Chat with lots of other staffs...

Which was just too enjoyable♡

Tomorrow will be the 5th & last day of the event!

& it's finally open to public,

with a $4/person fee... :D

Aww, I'll leave all the sad sad feelings to tomorrow... 

Diving into bed & sleep!

おやすみ(。´-ω-｀。).zZ

Byebye(*・∀-)☆恵

Heartbroken

Today, I got my heart broken twice...

Haix, but then life still goes on right?

The first one is quite personal so I'll refrain from typing it here

The second one is the news of Koki being kicked out of KAT-TUN

I'm super shocked at this piece of news,

as KAT-TUN is the one that pulled me into the Johnny's fandom & J-pop world

& also has been my all-time favourite /although I don't listen to them much recently/

Omg, KAT-TUN without Tanaka Koki is bullshit!

How can they survive without Koki's rap?!?!

I understand that he's wild & always breaking rules etc...

But that goes for all of KAT-TUN members...

They all have such strong personalities that attracts us Hyphens

I simply can't think of how they are going to do their next release... :(

With that all said, as least I've let of a bit of steam compressed in my head

Since official statements had been released there's nothing else us Hyphen can do.

I wished all the best for my dearest KAT-TUN & Tanaka Koki

& hopefully they can release something soon to ease us Hyphens uneasiness...

~ ずっ とハイフンでいてくれる？ じゃあ俺らもずっとKAT-TUNでいる。- 田中聖　~

Will you always be our Hyphens? Then we'll always be KAT-TUN. - Tanaka Koki (N.M.P Tour 2010)

(；～；)恵

Super Thankful (o・ω・o)

Hello!

You people must be thinking I'm insane for disappearing,

& reappearing (blogging) at a weird timing... HAHA

Just suddenly have the urge to write this post to thank some friends

for listening & being there for me!!! (-＾□＾-)

Really thankful for having you people there to hear me out blabbering non-stop! LOL

BUT, IT MEANS A LOT TO ME~♥

You people know who you are, so don't ask me~! :p

Super rocky recently with my head & everything happening around me...

Thank you all for listening to them & giving advices especially with me not knowing how to deal with it!!! (>へ＜。）

Today's Monday... Time flies~

Can't wait for my off-day tomorrow to meet up with Jojo~

Well than, 1 "rather recent" picture~

Bye byes!!(*・∀-)☆恵